my style...
actually, i wanted to get this entry up yesterday nite. but due to e exciting ending of 'potter', i kept reading it last night till when i finally finished it, its 4am already. quickly get a nap cos hav to wake up at around 6.30am to meet my golfy friends at 8am. beens mths since i last stepped on e golf green. as usual, gotten e 'honggan award', but this time, e award is smaller...
obviously, this is not wat i wanted to write in last nite. yesterday, i been to qing's convo n it feels gd, being able to put myself into e memories of others. its not e immediate effect im looking for, its e decades' effect im brewing. rem on sun tht suhui had asked us whether going to qing's convo. i did 犹豫了一下. ntu is quite far frm my house, n my friend did not make a confirmation of going...
back home tht nite, thinking of my objective in life. this brings me to my decision of going, regardless if anyone is going with me or how far i hav to travel. as can be seen, im quite unique in e ways i view situations n stuffs, and somehow, others see me as weird or extra. nevertheless, i dun really care wats their views on me, since we all know 天才与白痴只是一线之差. i always believe getting myself to make better in others life in one way or another, directly or indirectly. as i had said b4, i wanna b a 有利用价值的人(being useful to others). not being useful is jus implying tht my existence is worthless, having no difference if im erased frm this world in e next second...
so did i really make qing's day better after i go? im not too sure abt it but at least she can feel tht there exist a friend out there for her (ba). i jus dun wanna miss out meaningful days in e life of whom i care, which isnt alot...
in summary, its jus 'heck care others, live in others'. this objective sounds a bit contradicting as usual. well, this is my style...
obviously, this is not wat i wanted to write in last nite. yesterday, i been to qing's convo n it feels gd, being able to put myself into e memories of others. its not e immediate effect im looking for, its e decades' effect im brewing. rem on sun tht suhui had asked us whether going to qing's convo. i did 犹豫了一下. ntu is quite far frm my house, n my friend did not make a confirmation of going...
back home tht nite, thinking of my objective in life. this brings me to my decision of going, regardless if anyone is going with me or how far i hav to travel. as can be seen, im quite unique in e ways i view situations n stuffs, and somehow, others see me as weird or extra. nevertheless, i dun really care wats their views on me, since we all know 天才与白痴只是一线之差. i always believe getting myself to make better in others life in one way or another, directly or indirectly. as i had said b4, i wanna b a 有利用价值的人(being useful to others). not being useful is jus implying tht my existence is worthless, having no difference if im erased frm this world in e next second...
so did i really make qing's day better after i go? im not too sure abt it but at least she can feel tht there exist a friend out there for her (ba). i jus dun wanna miss out meaningful days in e life of whom i care, which isnt alot...
in summary, its jus 'heck care others, live in others'. this objective sounds a bit contradicting as usual. well, this is my style...
posted by onanlas at 5:31 PM
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