magnificent greenery...

'early in e morning, drinking a cup of hot chololate(actually its jus milo), sipping, enjoying it in a cafeteria(jus e sci canteen), relaxing myself on a specially modified sofa(aiya, jus e stupid hard chair), absorbing e magnificent greenery around me(hummm... a bit sorry to describe eye candies as greenery), jus cant help to feel tht life is wonderful...'

first time crapping myself in mathlab. always like to try out different stuff, else when i graduate wont hav e chance le. today is e last day for e honours final talk. regardless of which talk i attend today, theres onli one person tht i actually attended all her 3 talks: intro, midterm n final(n i dunno her).

it seems tht im finding more n more advantages for beginning my honours project earlier by a sem. they ar:
1) i hav 5 mths of research timing between my intro n midterm talk(due to e 3 mths long vacation period)
2) math department is going set a barrier for ppl to do solo honours project, which im very fortunate to b able to escape frm this policy cos im im very way below e barrier
3) onli e final talks ar e ones tht can provide ppl with information on wat tht research area is really going on, n since i hav a project topic le, i can always try to link these talks back to my topic, indirectly giving me more ideas to wat i can do next
4) i really like seeing ppl's facial expression(some come with 'shining eyes'), when they know i hav started my fyp le （满足my虚荣心）

i believe i can add more when i come to e end of e project, but for e time being, tht's all n i really appreciate them...

how to categorise a gal as fat...

lets blog a bit after supper...

throughout e movie 'music n lyrics', i hav been thinking of a question tht had started thinking some time ago. tht is 'how to categorise a gal as fat'. lets take drew b_rrym_r_ as example.
1）整体而言，她 肉肉的。
2）从背影来看，身体曲线很美，腰部还在。
3）再看脸部，并不宽肿，脸蛋没有多余的肉。
4）另外我一定注意的是手臂，oh...就有点肥了。
5）最后是小腿，hummm...还不错，没有坠肉。
我认为不需要去注意大腿,因为大腿不美的话,小腿也好不到哪里去。至于座下时所呈现的肚子呢，也并不需要太在意，因为整体的好坏会因坐姿而定。我们不需要去讨论胸部，因为这里的主题是肥或不肥，而只有瘦子才会有可能没有胸部吧。

所以从整体，背影，脸部，手臂，小腿这5项来判断，我的定义是只要有两项不及格就算有点肥了，而三项不及格就不用说了。所以drew是属于有点肥的。。。

还要记得一点，不肥并不代表瘦哦，可以是刚刚好。。。

music n lyrics...

经典frm music n lyrics

Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking from someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And I you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end



Don't Write Me Off

It's never been easy for me
To find words to go along with a melody
But this time there's actually something on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I met you my whole life has changed
It's not just my furniture you've re-arranged
I was living in the past
But somehow you've brought me back
and I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
and now I know based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you is
Don't write me off just yet

For years I've been telling myself the same old story
That I'm happy to live off my so called former glories
but you've given me a reason
to take another chance
now I need you despite the fact
that you've killed all my plants
and now I know
i've already blown more chances
than anyone should ever get
all I'm asking you is
don't write me off just yet
don't write me off just yet



Pop! Goes My Heart

[VERSE 1]
I never thought that I could be so satisfied,
Every time that I look in your angel eyes.
A shock inside me that words just can't describe,
And there's no explaining.
There's something in the way you move, I can't deny,
Every word from your lips is a lullaby.
A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver.

[CHORUS]
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling.

[VERSE 2]
These precious moments, we have so few,
Let us go far away, where there's nothing to do but wait.
You show to me that my destiny's with you,

And there's no explaining.

[CHORUS]
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling.

(instrumental)

A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver.

[CHORUS]
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go.

u ar e best...

due to 一只怕猫的狗仔的乱炒作，周围seems to arise abit of misunderstanding to my previous blog entry. 我承认 i forget to add in 1 condition to my superset 'special'. 那就是 no emotional feelings is involved. 因为without this condition, each person is special to at least someone in this world (proof omitted). below is 些安慰的话which e last line uses e set 'special' without e additional condition:

how can u b unhappy
when u ar very gd already as compare to others
always take e worst case scenario
u ar way above e mean n median
u ar at least in e best quarter range
y mus u compare urself with e best
who ar way out of e third sigma
jus live till ur best
or strive harder
epsilon by epsilon
theres no limit to it
n rem
in this world
u ar very gd
n to someone
u ar e best

(turn to e side, it seems to b a right-skew distribution...)

subset of special...

一段before lecture的对话：

me: 你知道我叫什么吗？
sj: 知道，but 还是要叫你 idiot leh.
me: 不好，这样你每次骂人idiot的时候，不是会想到我啰！
sj: 我很少骂人的。
me: 这样我不是很unique。
sj: 不是啰，there exist more than one我有骂的。
me: 那么我就是fall into你的special category了。
sj: -.-'''

这次我想要探讨的是什么呢？不是可以不可以叫我idiot，也不是怎么称呼我，当然也不是骂人idiot对不对。我要说的是'unique' is a subset of special，n 还有什么subset of special exist呢？还有有两个，一个是'weird'，另一个是'extra'。not all ppl fall into this special set. i believe i somehow fall into the subset 'unique' tht do not intersect with the subsets 'weird' n 'extra'. for all ppl, i do believe there exist ppl who fall into the intersection of 'unique', 'weird' n 'extra', n we call these ppl 'uniquely extra weird'. i do not think i know anyone in this category, if u think u ar or u know someone who falls into this category, pls let me know cos of 1 of e following reason:
a) 生态环境保护署 is searching for this kind of ppl
b) knowing this person can help me develop more thms in e future
c) can exhibit them n earn income out of it
d) none of e above

intro-talk...

my moniter is waving, my alarm clock is dancing, my whole rm is moving, m i too stress up until everything moves? then realise, oh, earthquake again. living on e 15th floor somehow or rather can really feel it. argh..., heck it, im still amending my intro-talk slides while im suppose to present it today. that is the first quake. by the next quake i felt, i had finished amending them, n is jus praying hard for no errors to happen le. choose to wear long sleeve, cos im e first presenter of the week, no one to follow or observe. now im e first player n hav make my move, so wat will e second player do after he observes my decision? hummm...

ya, n everything is over by 4.30pm. frm now till my mid-term talk, i hav 5 mths to prepare, much longer than those who starts their project in sem1 (onli 3 to 4 mths), cos i hav a longer sch holiday break in btw. my feed back is tht my leather shoes is making too much noise cos i keep walking up n down e rm thro out my talk. actually i will b very nervous if i dun move at all, will seem quite lost, n i really like to walk around, i even do tht when im at home. another reason is tht i need to see my slides to present. when i had moved to e back of e rm, i mus turn to face e front which i can then see e screen liao. but i cant stay at e back all e time, so i hav to move to e front again. but then i hav to turn back again else ppl will onli see my back. so repeating this procedures, im making lots of noise thro out e talk. my proposal to e math department is tht they shd floor e rm with carpet, then will b noiseless when i pace around. my sis has a better proposal, tht is to cut e carpet to my shoes size n stick it to e bottom of it, then i will b always walking on carpet le...

Anyway, really thx meixin, sijia, siong thye, jackson, tao siang, jeff for coming, (not forgetting those who encourage me along e way). especially e gals, mx came dwn for nothing n sj brought her laptop along jus for my 'in case of emergency', 真的感动... dun really like talking to air at all. i still think its better to hav more ppl in e rm than having lesser. feel really much nicer to b e centre of attention sometimes...

now, for those who came to my talk, 3 ar frm year4, 4 ar frm year 3 of which i onli really know 2 of them, n 1 is frm year2. so in short, 1-2-3 of year2-3-4 came. wat does this show? i hav more friends frm year4 than tht frm my coop?
(1) it seems tht onli ppl who ar in or going to b taking honours, ar then more interested in such talks.
(2) year4 students hav more flexible time than those who ar in e lower years, still attending lots of lectures for their mods...

seems like a long boring blog, but this is really memery to me...

sweet dreams...

乖宝宝 快睡觉
你可知道要去哪儿了
你知道 我知道
我们这要去梦游园

下一秒 梦到你
有如蜂蜜那么甜蜜
看着你 笑眯眯
就能一觉安祥到天明

乖宝宝 快睡觉
你可知道要去哪儿了
你知道 我知道
我们这要去梦游园

i sang this to myself last nite & i had a dream. 梦到有四位淑女陪着我，陪着我做什么呢？我忘了，只知道是个好梦。nevertheless, i jus hope to hav sweet dreams every nites, n this applies to u too...